This must be the place.

I've almost missed out on what all of my friends are experiencing because I'm not a student. Not that I'm particularly bothered, you can't miss what you've never had. But I'm missing it, I'm not involved.

No student entry, discounts, weekends that start on Thursday, drinking a lot, smoking more, flat share, student loan, over draft, one night stands/flings... none of that.

Then again, no hand ins, no late for class, no studying. No pressure to 'do well'.

My whole life, my attitude, has always been based around not being pressured to do well. And the result? I have average grades, an average job, a very average life and average ambitions. I've never thought yo should push children to do things they don't want to do, but as a child I only wanted to eat chocolate and play The Sims... which didn't get me very far.

So I guess this must be the place, the limbo, between failure and success, happiness and sadness. To be honest, it's rather mundane but I don't have the drive to move up the ladder, find a goal or just do something.