Over-worked and under-paid.

I am constantly feeling overwhelmed. There's an obvious connection between when I'm busy at work and when I feel this way.

It makes me lose my appetite. It makes me binge eat. it makes me lash out at you. It makes me very tired. I find myself crying at anything. Just now, watched a bit on the Olympic torch; greeting like a baby.

But I never recognise that it's work induced stress because I don't let my work or the amount of it bother me. I deal with my work load well, I prioritise everything that needs done and I make sure to do only as much as I'm capable. So, I find it difficult to blame my work for my mood therefore leaving me trying to point the finger, finding a cause. I am usually the cause.

I am constantly blaming myself. I have a sort of "I am not anything different" way of thinking. I'm convinced that everyone gets this way (and why should I be any different?) and that they all deal with it themselves, so I should be able to deal with everything. Anything. But everything is a lot of stuff and it gets to me.

Then I instantly feel bad because I can't deal with everything which makes me feel like less of a person (which, I know, is crazy) thus making me feel even worse. Vicious circle.

Over all, feeling sorry for myself, crying at soaps and eating my weight in chocolate. Just like every other hormonal woman! Fml.