Every sky would be blue.

I think subconsciously I'm setting myself up for failure.

Guy A - 'We Have History'
We go way back, and I have a terrible time giving up on people. He is absolutely hilarious. There's still a lot to get to know about each other but we know each other well enough, there's a connection. You have always been the 'what if?' in the back of my head. He scrubs up pretty well! But he has a lot of baggage. So much baggage... He's the obvious bad choice.
My head is telling me no. My heart is screaming yes.

Guy B - 'We Have Nothing'
There's not really a 'we' here. You're the new kid on the block. You're gorgeous. You're new new ad exciting. We have some things in common but I don't know you well enough. You've got a good job, a flat, you can drive. Our first date was a total disappointment, but at least you took me on a date. My head is telling me yes.

For the life of me I can't change my mind. I can argue it out in my head and go round in circles but deep down I know how I feel. I know what I want.

But why do I wan't what's not good for me? There's a perfectly good, decent guy but I just don't want to know him. I'd rather have the guy with the problems. The baggage. Is it a female thing or is it just me? Who am I kidding. I know I'm not going to think rationally.





Last night was so fantastic. Never in a million years did I imagine myself at his flat, half watching a film, half making out, both high as kites. Maybe it's the narcotics talking but I couldn't have planned it better.