It's Better; To Think Ahead.

"She don't love me like you
she don't know what you do
and it's so hard."

Do you ever hear songs and think "man, I wish he/she would say that to me". I don't wish he'd say that, but if he said anything at all it'd be an improvement. I often do this with songs, pick out lines I like and list them on my myspace bulletins. It's like a secret little puzzle I'm sending out to everyone to see if they can figure it all out and present it to me. I'd love it if someone did aswell, presented my thought to me in an order than explained everything, so then I could know and shake the hand of the person that did it for me.

I was going to do this blog on my holiday blog but I thought I may as well just put it here.

I was in my Wee Granny Camerons house yesterday, christmas obviously, you can't not go see you're relatives on a day like the 25th! Every year we open our presents, get ready and head up to each house, first the Granny McLaren (Big Granny), then the Granny Camerons (Wee Granny). I watched my Wee Granny and Grandad and wondered, will I be the same when I'm that old? Will I have lots of children and grandchildren or will I only have a couple of children and a few grandchildren? Will I live in a small little council house in a dangerous part of town or will I have a big house that I will only use two out or a bazillion rooms and have to hire a cleaner to dust every room? Will I live with someone I've been married to (god, me, married?) for the majority of my life or will I live alone? Maybe I'll live with a friend for the company or I'll me re-married a thousand times and live with the current husband!

Whatever I do end up like, I just hope I'm as happy as either of my grandparents!
My Big Granny and Granda like to go on holiday as often as they can, they often have the family around at christmas and like to buy presents for the younger grandchildren, they like to keep in touch and phone their children and all that jazz, I'd like to be like them because I hope I'm that active and lively when I reach that age.

The Camerons don't go out alot, but that's because my Wee Granny is awefully ill. They stay in and watch telly alot, and the children and grandchildren come in and visit them whenever they're free. I see myself being like my Wee Granny when I'm older because I'm most likely going to become rather ill with the lifestyle I live. Not that I'd dislike that kind of like at that age, it's what would be best for me. I'll loose my marbles and need someone to look after me!

I just want there to be someone, but not anyone, to look after me.