Just An Ass In The Crack On Humanity.

I am a huge manitee.

And you think you can just show up at my house, all hunkey dorey and things will be okay? You'll just knock and say "Hi! Is Heather in?" and then everything will be okay and you'll put a stop to the war. News flash, my family hate you. If my mum even sees you walking up our drive she'll go out and kill you.

I remember a faraway laugh, a sweet caress, you'd help me zip up my dress. I remember your arms around my neck, twenty one shells wrapped in a nest. Endlessness didn't last. I won't change given the chance. I remember no place for me to hide before you came home at night. I remember you turnin out the lights, all I ever saw was the red in your eyes. No big surprise, happened nearly every night. Your own flesh & blood, I did wonder why... I remember not knowing what to say and how calm you had remained, your child still born with no name. I remember the never ending summer rain. Please don't let what was get in the way of what's next. Don't forget that what's to come hasn't come yet.

You cannot fix things now, it's far too late to even bother trying. What more can you possibly want to say that hasn't already been said?

I will listen to you. I will sit outside my house and hear what you have to say, but you know that you'll just get it thrown back at you, right? You must realise now that it can't be worth it. I don't know what you're trying to achive from this, we can't be friends without falling out.

This, right now, it's working for me. I don't want you knocking on my door, trying to change it all.