40th Blog Post.

"Oh I can’t look at you this morning
I should probably have a sign
That says ‘Leave "right now or quicker’
You’ve overstayed your time

Maybe I slept peaceful on your shoulder
Your arm warm around my side
But it’s different now, it’s morning
And I can’t face your smile

The second that I feel your safe hands
Reaching out for mine
I slip away and out of sight
You’ve overstayed your time"



I don't think I am made to be in a relationship, ever. I can't seem to hold my interests in one person at a time or one person for longer than a few weeks. I can't be that nice lovely pretty making-you-look-good girlfriend... I do appologise! I don't think it is entirely my fault. Boys/Men must play a big part in this? It's been suggested that I am afraid of relationships. I think it's something else...

Noun
Singular; commitment
Plural; commitments
commitment (plural commitments)
1. The act or an instance of committing, putting in charge, keeping, or trust, especially:

• The act of sending a legislative bill to committee for review
  
• Official consignment sending a person to prison or a mental health institution

2. Promise or agreement to do something in the future, especially:

• Assuming a financial obligation at a future date
  

3. Being bound emotionally/intellectually to a course of action or to another person/other persons.
4. Perpetration, in a negative manner, as in a crime or mistake.
5. State of being pledged or engaged.
6. The trait of sincerity and focused purpose.
7. The act of being locked away, such as in an institution for the mentally ill or jail.

I think it's that, that word up there, 'commitment'. I spend a long time with one? person I start to pick at their flaws, allt he annoying little things they do, subconsiously. I don't need that. That feeling like crap because you've started to hate the one thing you love.

This 'love' thing, over rated. But the aftermath of it all sure does make good writing.