And then it happened. I'm not too sure if I wanted it to go this way, to be honest. This is so much messier than I expected. I didn't think I'd play a big part in it either. I'm starting to question if it was all really worth it? Is he worth it?
I started writing an appology to her last night, not that I'm ever going to give it to her, explaining that I didn't mean for it to end this way. I didn't, honestly. I know I've said really sour things before but I think that was just the way he was making me. I became something new and ugly. Really just an embarrassment, now that I think about it. I was acting really petty.
As much as he means to me, I feel worse for her than him. I am a woman, I nkow how she feels. I should really have told her before, seeing as she did ask me if he had cheated and I lied to her... but she understands it wasn't my place to say.
I hope he understands this wasn't all my fault. I'm not pointing the finger or anything, but it's definetly not in my direction, wherever it goes. I was just a constant in this, I could have been anyone. It was bound to happen by some point, right? I don't understand why he's being so upset and sad... He brought this upon himself.
I don't know what to do.
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