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I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart. I don't know how you skuck your way into my arms.

I'm just a stupid girl with a stupid crush.

I think that's all I'm capable of; crushing. Crushing is a horrible term. Imagine someone came up to you, someone you didn't know too well and they say soemthing along the lines of "I'm crushing on you" or "I've got a cruch on you...". The first image that pops into my head is the cartoon of a house with arms and legs coming out from underneath and a little speak bubble that reads "help! i'm being crushed on!". If that's the case, I never want to be crushed on.

I feel I am to old to crush. Isn't crushing for first years? Not 17 year olds. 17 year olds can drive! They shouldn't be allowed to have crushes on people. There should be another word for it, when you hit a certain age. Although, I never say "Iv'e got a crush on *insert boy-that-looks-like-girl's name here*" anymore, I now say, "I am interested in *insert wanker*". It gives off a more mature impression, I think. Not that I'm saying I'm mature, I'm not really, I'm just getting old. It's the same as when you hear an old woman say "This is my boyfriend," which is a blatant lie, he's your friend but he's no longer a boy, he's a man.

I'm trying to be older than I am, aren't I?... Why am I asking you? You are mearly a laptop and not once have you replied to me!

I don't crush anymore. I can't do it. I don't see boys/men as possible matches. I see them as fun. I'm sure that's probably rather insulting to them really... That the only reason I'm taking an interest to them is because they are 'fun', but surely they'll understand that I find it insulting that they're only taking an interest in me because I possibility for sex? I'm not just a woman, I'm a person.

See me as genderless! I should change my name to something more uni-sex. Sam? Alex? Jordan? I want to change my name..."