Shall we listen to it just once more? it wont hurt anyone but me, right? So, let's. Let's dive in and explore all the reasons as to why I should throw you out of my life and out of my mind.
"You thought you could change his mind by changing your perfume to the kind his mother wore. Oh God, Delilah, why? I never met a more impossible girl."
So, you think he's not good enough. You think I can do better. Not just you, alot of you do and alot of you comment on this each and every time I find a new guy. But you of all people do not have the right to tell me what is good for me and what isn't. You, the person that's driven me to insantiy, self hard and a crazy addiction to chocolate. You who still has the mind of a 16 year old boy because that's all that you are. You're not thinking about any of this the same way that I am.
"In this same bar where you slammed down your hand and said "Amanda, I'm in love". No you're not. You're just a sucker for the ones who use you, and it doesn't matter what I say or do, the stupid basterd's gonna have his way with you."
You're currently in a relationship, one of the most disfunctional I have ever witnessed. The two of you can't pass a month without fighting with each other. And when you do, who do you both come to? Me. Why? I'll never know. You can hardly give me relationship advice when you are only just managing to hold your own.
I won't let you tell me what's right and wrong for me. How would you know what's good for me anymore? The only reason everything is like this is because of you, so really, maybe you should just butt out for a change and see what happens when you don't interviene? I don't need you to check up on me and see how I am. If i wanted your help, your opinion, anything from you, I'd ask for it. Don't come here giving me what you think when you know damn fine that I couldn't care less.
That's the thing, I've stopped caring. 'Gave up' on it all. Because really, my friends will never be happy with the people I choose. True friends are happy when you are. True friends want to see you happy. Fake friends judge the people I pick without taking the chance and getting to know them. Fake friends are not what I need anymore. How am I ever meant to be happy if you guys aren't? Just slap on a stupid smile when I'm around, atleast, pretend.
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for him/her. Tell me that in the end it will be worth it and my fall will be fabulous.
Stop looking out for me. I'm sick of everyone thinking I can stand up for myself. I'm a big girl now. I've grown. Face the facts, I'm 17, I'm going to be 18 next year. I'm going to be meeting new people and losing loads of old ones, I'm going to have loads more relationships that you lot wont be able to watch over and manipulate. I'm going to go to parties, I'm going to get wasted and have flings, I'm going to be stupid and make my own mistakes. I'm going to have my own life without you, you and you.
My point?
You don't have any right to tell me who I should take interest because I honestly believe that if it was up to you, you would let me be miserable until all I depended on was you. News Flash baby, Big girls like me don't depend. I'm a rock. As much as it drives me crazy, I won't ever, ever stop keeping it all together.
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1 comment:
You know what i see this blog as?
I see it as a person displaying humanity's greatest flaw.
The in-ability to be happy with what they've got.
Because you know that even if all this bullshit that you're complaining about changed, you'd find something new to complain about, no-one is ever happy because no-one ever realises how fortunate they really are.
Yes yes, i'm spouting the same old bullshit, common arguments against this are "You dont know how i feel", "How can you just shelf my feelings, every persons feeling are important".
These whiny little arguments have one thing in common, the same thing that the majority of all humans have in common, their complete lack of care towards anyone else. You may say that the second argument completely proves me wrong here, and you may be right, the only flaw with it is that not everyone says what they say with true meanings. Or like, hidden meanings and shit.
Hidden meanings are a bitch, i almost didn't reply to this blog because i thought it may have a bunch of hidden meanings and bullshit, and i may be making a complete tool of myself, but i dis-agree with hidden meanings anyway, i dont care how intelligent they make you or how much thought you put into it, a hidden meaning can never mean as much as the true meaning said out loud.
In my opinion anyway.
Anyway, shit yeah
Original thought behind this reply waaaasss people are never happy with what they've got, and thats what i gained from your Blog, not any specific feelings of sadness or anything, just a lack or appreciation. Though perhaps i'm reading it wrong.
Though it seems that if anything you lack the insight to see that SOMETIMES, when people try and "control" what you do, there's actual feeling behind it, so before oyu go branding people "good friends" and "bad friends" you should fucking add their feelings into the equation, not just your own.
Perhaps i've read it wrong or summat, cos no matter how i look at it, kinda feels like a load of bullshit. But if it was your true feelings then this is what i'd think of them, though of course you never asked for my opinion.
But you'll read it anyway.
And yeah i probably sound very mean and nasty, probably am.
but i r teh shitsux.
this reply probably kinda sucks, i'm sorry if i dissapoint oyu.
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