I Was Thinking; Part 3.

We lasted forever... 7 months and a week to be exact. I liked you and you liked me. Apparently it was love, atleast thats what we told each other. The first time you said you loved me was over the phone, one of those "I'm about to hang up" things, it wasn't even "I love you", just "love you". That was a few months into it.

You fancied me, I didn't actually like you like that. Apparently you wanted to make a move on me at a camp out, I didn't know about this until a while after we got together. It took you about a week to actually ask me out, you sent me a text saying something like "there was somehting I was going to ask you but you went home" and you didn't get around to asking me for ages! I already knew though, I got one of my friends to find out. We weren't even friends, we never were, but it worked.

I didn't talk to you in school, sometimes we walked to class together but that would have been a one-off. You spent your lunch times at the tree, I didn't smoke so I had no reason to be out there, I stayed inside with all the 'emo's' at the hobo corner and the radiator. You did see me after school atleast three days a week. We didn't spend weekends together. I didn't like your friends. I hardly even liked you that much, come to think of it.

I almost dumped you... more than you know! Once every couple of months I'd think, "what's the point?" but then I realised there was no point, it was just fun and nice and I should be happy with that. I liked that you'd text me at 2 in the morning with the most pointless texts, asking if I'm awake or how I was... tired would have been the answer.

I was happy... but I was also very, very young! I was 14, not old enough to understand. Although, I thought I was. If we left it a few more years maybe, until we were more mature, I think we could have made it work. But you will always have that 'I don't give a shit' attitude that you do with all your girlfriends.