I Was Thinking; Part 4.

You were rediculously nice to me, to everyone, and you still are. You're the only person that willingly came to me on my birthday and endured a day of my mates slagging you off as if you couldn't hear them. I just hope you didn't hear them, I'd hate for you to think I associate myself with people like that.

You were one of the many that I met in The Cat House. You remembered my name, that's how we got talking. I remembered yours because everyone called you 'Swannie' and I thought it was rediculous. I walked into your life quite like no one else ever has, or atleast that's what you told me, and I liked that. You always reminded me that I'd made a big impact on the way you saw things, changed your perspective on life. That didn't stop you talking about the same things day in, day out.

It was selfish of me to 'dump' you because I thought you were boring. It wasn't that I found you boring, you were full of little interesting things, but when you hear the same stories over and over for a week straight... it becomes boring. I blamed it on the distance. You'll find that I tend to throw around the Distance excuse like there's no tomorrow.

Distance was a problem though, you lived somewhere I never even heard of before. I know it was two trains away from me, one away from Glasgow, meaning about 2 hours of travel. I could only afford Glasgow every second weekend. You ended up coming through in the evenings, you told me enthusiastically of your plans, that when I went back to school, you'd come through to Helensburgh. If you did, you'd only be with me, here, for a couple of hours then you'd have to head home. I didn't like it.

I started to feel slightly chlostraphobic. There was no reason for me to feel enclosed but I did. You were making an effort to see me because you actually wanted to, and I didn't feel quite the same.

You introduced me to the best movie in existance. I'm glad you're still my friend. I didn't try as much as I should of, but even if I did, I don't think I could have changed what happened.