I Was Thinking; Part 6.

This will probably end up as one of the most embarrassing things I have ever written but I had to get around to it eventually, ans no doubt you've been itching to read what I have to say about you. You are going to read this some time tonight, so whatever you do just don't bring it up in conversation, because I'll end up freezing up. You know how I get when I'm talking about these things, I freak out, alot.

It must have all started some time in 3rd year, in our most wonderful English class. Thank goodness we were in the same class, I doubt we'd be friends at all if I wasn't in that class with you. You sat beside Danielle so I stole your seat. Typical me really, not taking other peoples' feelings into consideration. We started talking some time then, I'm not sure when I realised I 'fancied' you. It actually embarrasses me to say that. You should seriously see me face right now, I look like I'm about to punch someone. No offence!

You were in my Art and Graphics classes too. In both I did not sit with you. In Art you sat with Tamsin, someone I did not like, and in Graphics you were at the other end of the room. We hardly spoke really, I wasn't that into you at that point, it was during the summer (I think) that it all properly kicked off.

So, summer? I can't figure this all out in my head, I've got all the timing wrong. I was going to get Danielle to talk to you one day but I met Jake instead. Now knowing the bigger picture, I should have just gone ahead with all my plans, but Danielle said I should just go for it with him instead, which I did. There was one night, a few days after that day, you were with Danielle and Colin I think, and you said it was good that I'd moved on from you (or something along those lines, remember my memory is aweful), wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear but c'est la vie.

Then there was that rediculous camp-out, just after the day with the phone booth incident. You know how it went, basically, we were then we werent; end of. I did not take it well, that day in James Street. Not much else I can say on that really... We didn't talk much after that.

In 4th year you got moved up to set 2 maths and into the seat behind me, happy days for me! Here's one of the most rediculous things you'll probably ever read; I used to write notes with just casual things like "you out 2night?" or whatever, but I got all embarrassed and never passed you them... I remember just thinking that you'd think I was being really weird and acting like a big girl. So, if I haven't thrown out my 4th year books, if you tip the jotter upside down a thousand little bits of paper all saying "out 2night?" and "how r u?" would fall out.

It was later in 2007 you caused more fuss. That whole thing with me and you and Laura. I didn't like her. You got my hopes up for nothing! I was back to hating you again for a while. I can't remember how long it lasted, me not liking you, but I'm sure it was a while... I'm good at holding grudges. You've already apologised for that, but as I always say; sorry doesn't change anything. It still happened.

At the begining of 2008 I started again. It was just a re-occuring problem! We went shopping for the dress up party. I went home that night thinking "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!". The next day you got with Emma. Again, I wasn't happy but by that time we were good friends so I just brushed it off. The she dumped you and I dumped Dicky and a bing, bam, boom! it happens again. We wnt out for about a month and a half? It was fun but after a while it didn't feel right. That sucks but I guess that's the way it is.

Last summer, there was all of that nonsence at the party, I'm not going to get into that because we've spoken about it and it's a thing of the past now.

What I mean to say is, you're my best friend and probably the best ex I will ever have! I like that we have possibley the most complicated story of how we know each other. After everything, I think I can safely say that it has only made us better friends.