Monday, 23 March 2009

That's The Way, Uhuh Uhuh, I Like It.

"Old enough to know better, to young to care."

I want to be Lyla Diamond. A spontanious, fun-loving teen that lives to love and loves life. I have a life filled with excitement, constantly getting into humorous situations. I have an excellent family, a mother that gives me space, a father that gives me freedom and a brother that treats me like a human. I plan to leave school and persue a career that I'll love.

I am Heather Cameron. A head-in-the-clouds teen that's constantly getting into trouble and tricky situations. I have all the friedns in the world but only 4 that I feel are worth it, the rest are not my friends by choice, merely because we don't know any better. My house is filled with lies and arguements. I don't get along with my mother because I am turning into her and I can't stand it. I' failing secondary school and will be lucky to make it through college without changing my mind.

I was Delilah Debonair/Delilah Madonna Awesomeness. A confused adolescent that wants to break the mold for the sake of arguement. Using my stubborness to agrivate my mother, even though it was never her fault for me being the age I was.

I will never be happy with my lot, it's in my nature to cause a fuss. I hate that I'm horrible but there's just so much I can't put up with. Sometimes I can't get my head around some peoples habits an that's why I snap. I know I could be worse. Surely, if it was that big a deal, I wouldn't have any friends? My mother would have thrown me out of the house and I'd be alone, surely...

I'll never understand myself, but why would I want to? Sure, life would be easier, I'd be able to control my emotions and hide/show them properly. But I wouldn't be me, I wouldn't be that crazy girl! I'd be no fun. "Just another number".

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